Allow Me to Write Plainly



Slightly over a year ago from today, my husband and I ate at a birthday dinner with my in-laws. When asked about my job, I had the opportunity to describe my work on MaryLovestheUK.com, and the subjects I write about. For, I had then recently quit my position in retail due to needing to address my mental health.

The woman, who had a far more lucrative position in the Bay, proceeded to ask prying questions into my humble blog. Both my husband and I received the impression her curiosity stemmed more from mockery than genuine interest. For what kind of person does it take to respect simple, honest writing? Someone who loves God.



I, sadly enough, also struggle to respect lowly positions with low wages. Though I love God, my pride and my ego hated working at the retail position. As a result, given my mental condition, it had driven me completely over the edge. The voices had mocked me for years, and eventually the tears had begun streaming down my face uncontrollably.

And what did my employer have to say? She provided me with a warning and told me I was unprofessional. So, I quit. Plain and simple. I never wanted the job to begin with, so I wasn’t going to fight for a job I didn’t want. The choice had been easy.



Naturally, most people with my mental condition cannot afford to simply quit their jobs. God has blessed me with a family, both parents and a husband, who make just enough of an income where we can all get by. And I try to help with online money opportunities. But, in all reality, most people with schizophrenia never attain great job opportunities. And I’m no different.

So, if my reader has managed to make it this far, please understand that I write for the sake of writing. People may encourage me to write about my faith, or my interest in British fandom, but I write because I enjoy the process. And if a reader stumbles across my blog and finds an article of interest, awesome! But, I realize I shall never make a proper living as a blogger, and I will accidently (or intentionally, given my state of mind) insult and anger some people. But I write merely for writing’s sake.



Please accept my apologies for when I write in anger. I do sometimes stress over if I have written inappropriately. And when I think I have, I do apologize and hope to receive forgiveness. For I had to forgive the woman, because she didn’t know my situation or condition. And even if she had, God still expects His followers to forgive as we have been forgiven. So, I shall try, succeeding only with God’s help.

From this point forward, I will write on what currently interests me. This shall be a personal blog. For, though I long to write about the great complexities about my faith, the reality is that I have little desire to do much of anything these days, and my anxiety over my voices is large and cumbersome. Thank you for your patience and understanding.



“So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide.” (The Fellowship of the Ring, 2001)

live to see such times

Peter Jackson’s The Fellowship of the Ring expounds Gandalf’s most significant message in the entire trilogy. Earlier in the film, Frodo had expressed his desire for all the evil to have never happened. So when Frodo stopped to consider his long and lonely journey ahead, Gandalf’s words came back to him: “So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.”

We Who Live to See Such Times in the Modern World




Throughout this whole past year, left-leaning voters have whined heavily about USA’s current President Donald Trump for being USA’s current president. They live to see such times demolished and destroyed, never to happen again. They refuse to play fair with the right-leaning thinkers who also live in the country.

But politics are of little concern here in Mary Loves the UK. What concerns us more are the nuclear weapons. Why do people in other countries hate and fight fellow people in neighboring countries? Why do people have an intolerance for anything different?

J.R.R. Tolkien’s hobbits would never understand why men fight for power as they do. They live happy lives, growing what they will, taking on only simple troubles. And as elderly men live to see such times, they too begin to wonder why. Or else, they fall completely prey to the fight for power.

Deciding Our Course When We Live to See Such Times




People with strong faith in something greater than themselves normally have better perspective on what to do with their lives. Raised within the church and having read through the Bible, I know several proverbs that speak of men deciding where they shall go, praying and giving thanks for success, and the Lord leading them through it.

Too many people get caught up in the decision on what to do with their lives. Bad economies, terrorist incidents, natural disasters, oncoming wars, and much more can easily lead anyone to wish for better times. They also lead people to make excuses for not using their own, personal time wisely.

To use our best abilities for the best causes, we must first discover our abilities and learn about the most important causes. Faith in God should lead us to the Bible, which speaks greatly on the many ways to worship the Creator and to help each other. Local communities join together to help the poor, the widows, and the orphans. A good paying job could serve a greater purpose. The choice belongs to us.

To Live to See Such Times in Tolkien’s View




J.R.R. Tolkien’s childhood was spent in England, specifically when Germany bombed London to smithereens. Hopefully some biographies on Tolkien will shed some light on whether or not J.R.R. Tolkien took the northern trains during his childhood. For regardless of his situation, it was for certain that the Tolkien family desired to see better times.

Maybe The Lord of the Rings came from this young boy’s faith in something greater. Maybe it came from his traumatic and misplaced childhood during World War I. Whatever the inspiration, J.R.R. Tolkien assuredly inspired many to see what they can do when given difficult times in which to live.